Sunday, November 22, 2015


I've tried all types of foundations, from Chanel, Laura Mercier, Urban Decay, RMK, L'Oreal, Bobbi Brown and lastly, Laneige. Nothing has ever came close to BB Cushion Compacts. I LOVE THEM. The most popular brand is Laneige. Unfortunately, it didn't really impress me. Had to apply lots of layers and the color didn't really match me? Hence, I gave up. 

Decided to give NARS a try cause of all the amazing reviews. But, didn't wanna trouble baby by going all the way to KL just to get my cosmetics so, decided to try a cheaper and a closer alternative to home. Went to 1 Utama skinfood and wanted to try the Royal Honey BB Compact, but, it was discontinued.

So, walked a few feet away to Etude House. Imagine my pleasant surprise when they have BUY 1 FREE 1 STOREWIDE promo!

I got this Precious Mineral MAGIC Any Cushion for RM138 and this is actually a primer! The peach is to brighten and clear skin tone. I've never seen a cushion primer. Don't be fooled, this is colorless and I loved how smooth it made my skin. 

My skin was smoother, clearer and brighter, instantly. It is a very impressive product. 

And I got this Precious Mineral Any Cushion (RM138) for FREE! It really made my skin dewy and pretty! I REALLY LOVE, LOVE, LOVE IT!!! It took very little to hide my enlarged pores, redness and acne marks. 

I hate finding matches for my skin and I always get it wrong. Even the SA from Bobbi Brown got it wrong but this SA and this concealer is THE PERFECT SHADE. It hid all my imperfections, perfectly and comfortably. It blends easily and it's such a miracle worker. Only at RM46, it's such a steal!

And I got this blusher for FREE!!! Perfect shade of coral to give my face a little flush. It's very pigmented and a little goes a long way. I love the cute little ribbon puff! 

Do check their promotion out! The promotion is until the end of December. The whole store is BUY 1 FREE 1, Item is of equal value or less. I'm so tempted to buy the refills and a lipstick. The whole set made me look natural and pretty and I'm really impressed at the quality for the price. 

For more info, you can check ETUDE HOUSE out. 

 I went back and bought the lipstick (RM65) for something matte. This lipstick is moisturizing, matte and the color is just too pretty!

 I fell in love with color eye sticks. For someone who doesn't know how to use eye colors, these are God sent!!! Perfect for beginners like me. I love it so much, I have 2! I love something slightly shimmery just to brighten up my eyes and these are perfect! So many colors and the shimmer was just nice. For RM31, the Bling Bling Eye Sticks are a steal! I'm using Sunset Star. I just might upgrade to Laura Mercier's Caviar Sticks once I'm done and got the hang of these.

So, How does Etude House fare? This is my natural face. No make up whatsoever. Just cleansed. 

TA DA! This is my face with all the make up listed here from Etude House!!! My skin looks like those Korean girls, smooth, fair, and dewy. My lips looks pretty in pink and my cheeks, just flushed. This picture is NOT edited, just the frame. 

Tuesday, November 03, 2015

1 Month OLD!!

Being an OCD has never been this fruitful. I have to say that me and hubby are very OCD and turns out baby has inherited some of our traits. 

He has inherited strict timing where he knows how to put himself to sleep and he sleeps through the night and wakes up every 3 hours to feed. So, I could get some sleep. 

While other moms are complaining that their baby isn't sleeping, this little dumpling knows how to wake up, feed and then go back to sleep. He doesn't need me to cuddle or carry him. Even if his eyes are wide open and he's awake, he doesn't cry, he will just blink play by himself for awhile until he sleeps. 

And he looks so different now. He's put on weight with his double chin and fat thighs and his face isn't as small now. 

I've come a long way breastfeeding him and with the haze and baby is getting sick; Coughing, sneezing, wheezing and phlegm in his lungs/bronchial??? Took his to the paed and if he doesn't improve, he might get bronchitis. 

So, I've been overdosing on Orange Juice and started taking probiotics. Trust me, The whole house was sick and I was the only healthy one. Within a week baby is very healthy now, with the occasional sneezing. 

Always, ALWAYS go natural. I refused to take Vitamin C tablets but I squeeze the juice from 10 oranges a day. In the morning; 4. Afternoon; 2. Dinner; 4. 

He is a bit spoilt though. In the afternoons, he will only sleep if we carry him. His fav place to sleep? On my breast!

When I was pregnant, I didn't know what I needed, so, me and hubby bought EVERYTHING a baby needs. You say it, we have it. We spent close to 12k on baby stuff. 

1) Wet wipes.
2) Diapers (I use Charlie Banana Cloth diapers during the day and Drypers at night)
* You can find Charlie Banana in Malaysia
3) Baby Powder
4) Baby Wash (Sebamed Baby/Buds cause it's gentler on the skin compared to Johnsons)
5) Swaddle (I have 6 in rotation from Angel Dear and Aden + Anais)
6) 2 baby blankets
7) 10-15 short sleeve onesies
8) Muslin cloths and hankies
9) 7 long sleeve onesies but i rarely use them cause its difficult to change his diapers at night.
10) Towels. (I have 4 in rotation)
11) Thermometer. (Microlife Digital Thermometer is one of the best! Plus i got it for RM128 during sales)
12) Clevamama Baby Pillow (Baby loves this!)
13) Bath tub
14) Cotton balls

1) Lots of breastpads / reusable breast pads
2) Pads and pantyliners
3) Got my confinement stuff from Eu Yan Sang

1) Breast milk storage. (Bags/ bottles)
2) If bottles, best to get a sterilizer. (I got a great deal at Mothercare)
3) Dettol hand sanitizer.
4) Nipple cream (Mustela / Earth Mama Angel Baby)

I did most of my shopping at Applecrumby & Fish and Mothercare.

If you need a list of what to buy, you can find it HERE

Monday, October 26, 2015

Books and Such

Since The Hubby and I are avid readers, I have a whole room full of books staked high from the ceiling to the floor and we both come from family of readers, we thought we would share our love for books with Baby. Baby is barely a month old and we've already filled out one part of the shelf with baby books.

I've discovered a few children's online bookstores in Malaysia that offers competitive pricing for imported English books and it's a tad difficult to put together cause I love Political Sciences books and I normally get my fix from Kinokuniya. The Hubby likes religious books and fiction and he loves Christian bookstores. Buying baby books are new to us. I grew up with Enid Blyton and now, there's a whole array of new authors with cute books. 

At his age, I saw many recommendations for flash cards. I think it's boring and its not contextual, rather more academically inclined. I love children's books because they're simply adorable, cute illustrations, colorful characters and funny, simple stories. 

He has the complete set of Dr. Seuss and Roald Dahl for now. I'm liking the cute characters of Maisy, Sophie The Giraffe and Spot. Anyways, here's a list of ONLINE CHILDREN'S BOOKSTORE HERE IN MALAYSIA/ DELIVERS TO MALAYSIA FOR FREE. 

These listings are only for ENGLISH books. I don't read books in any other languages except Spanish. 

1) Book Depository
Huge selection of books, Delivers free to Malaysia but do a cross check with local bookstores for best prices. I bought a few books which was a few dollars more expensive. It takes about 2-3 weeks for your books to arrive to Malaysia. 

2) Bookxcess
I haven't bought online because I'd rather go to their physical store in Amcorp/ Fahrenheit88 so I can browse and buy more books! I love this place cause it's really cheap and they have lots of children's books which you can't find at Popular/MPH/etc....

3) Littlebookz
They specialize only on Children's books. The prices are really reasonable but books sell out too fast. My advice, if you like it, just buy it. Wide array of imported English books.

4) Littlebookwormmy
Similiar to littlebookz but I have not purchased from them before. 

5) Lostmyname
This is a lovely site for you to personalize the storybook with your child's name. It's super cute cause the book tells he story of a Boy/Girl Who Lost Their Name and went on an adventure to get their name back. It makes a lovely gift as well. 

Thursday, October 22, 2015

Reality of Motherhood

My water broke at 6AM on the and had to be rushed to KPJ Damansara Specialist. By 7AM, I was already contracting. The nurses had to prep me and seriously, I really respect nurses. They inserted something into my anus and i started to remove whatever that was in my intestines. Then they attached the drips so I would contract faster. By 10AM, the contractions were excruciating. I felt I was stabbed twice in front and twice at the back. I tried standing, I tried moving, I tried lying on my side, I tried jumping lightly, I tried dancing, you name it, I tried it. 

By 12PM, I really couldn't take the pain and I requested for an epidural. That was because my dr told me, "Why am I fighting the pain? When I should be conserving my energy to push baby out". That too, hurt a bit, but not as much as the contractions. 

By 2PM, I was 8CM dilated but somehow my cervix (I think) wasn't opening up and baby's heart rate was dropping and the dr suggested to do an emergency C-Sec. I have full trust with Dr. Sivamohan and since baby's life was at stake, I agreed. 

Baby was born a few hours after that and one of the few reasons we chose KPJ Damansara Specialist is because its a breast feeding friendly hospital and babies room with mommies. 

This is when I saw baby for the first time. I'm still confused and there was no bond like the way, in the movies. I'm just tired, confused and looking at baby skeptically that just came out of my body. 

The reality of motherhood is, despite reading all the Pregnancy books, you'll still be stupid and not know what to do. I didn't know how to carry him, breast feed him or anything. Caring for a puppy was easier. I really envy my husband, he had that instantaneous bond with baby. He was carrying and kissing baby once he was born. 

Since the hospital is a breast feeding hospital, ALL mommies have to breast feed their babies and baby knows how to suckle but he only preferred the right breast because the left breast has a shorter nipple. By DAY 5, both my breast were terribly engorged and my nipples were bleeding. 

By the end of the first week, I had high fever and I wanted to stop breast feeding because it was just too stressful and painful for me and baby. I tried everything. If you know me, you know that I'm stubborn and I don't give up easily. I will only give up if I've tried my best and did not get the desired results. 

I tried different positions. Cradle, Football hold, etc, I bought all 3 different sizes of Medela Nipple shields, To "elongate" my left nipple, I would use my breast pump to suction the nipple before offering to baby. EVERYTHING FAILED. My nipples were swollen and bleeding, Baby had to be fed from a cup, when I pump my milk, it's pink cause of the blood and I had very high fever, my breast were engorged and Baby kept crying throughout the night. My mom, the hubby and I was fighting. 

The Hubby didn't approve of us feeding baby with a syringe. My mother was in pain when she saw how much I was in pain feeding baby and I was in pain, angry and frustrated that my baby had to be fed through a syringe/cup. It was a vicious cycle. I cried because I missed his little smile once he has breast fed and slept. The whole house was stressed out and filled with tension. 

My last solution was to call for a Lactation Specialist. 

This was how I met Dr. Ning. She came to my house the very next day.  She examined my breast and nipples, taught me how to hand express because the breast pump wasn't allowing my wound at my nipple to heal and taught me to massage and treat my breast and nipples. 

She also found out that baby had latching problems because he has tongue tie and for the next few days, Baby will be fed using the cup and we scheduled to see the dr to release baby's tongue tie. Hiring a Lactation Specialist was the best decision I've ever made because she managed to solve all my breast feeding problems. That, and also having very supportive colleagues that Whatsapp me every single day telling me to, not give up. 

This is the 3rd week and I'm happy to say that I'm still breastfeeding my baby. What made me push on is that, my 2 weeks old breastfed baby is able to raise his head and turn himself, things that only 1 month old babies do. Also, baby already knows how to differentiate between day and night. he sleeps through the night with 1-2 feedings and awake most times during the day. 

Even though I feel like a cow, I sleep, eat and feed him about 10-12 times a day, I feel happy that I'm able to give him a healthy head start in life. I'm able to ensure that he's healthy and that's the best kind of gift for a baby. 

I'm still not ready for motherhood, I'm still learning everyday but hey, it's only been 3 weeks and it has been a freakingly long and painful 3 weeks. I'm glad my stubborn-ness paid off. I'm glad I looked for help and I'm glad to be able to breastfeed my baby. 

For more info:
SusuIbu - Lactation Consultant
KPJ Damansara Specialist
Dato Dr. Sivamohan

Saturday, September 26, 2015


This last week has been excruciating. I've been to the hospital at least 2-3 times a week! 

1) My whole body is aching. It's like I over exercise myself and the pain never really goes away.

2) I think I'm leaking urine and I can't even control it. 

3) I'm always lying down in bed.

4) I'm too tired to do anything or go anywhere.

5) I hate myself.

6) My breast are leaking.

7) I'm just feeling sad all the fucking time. 

8) I really wanna be left alone.

9) I wanna be disconnected from the world. 

10) I hope that this is normal. 


This was Skipper. The first few years when we adopted him. He was handsome, stubborn, boisterous and always had a mind of his own. He loved to piss the whole family off, especially Daddy. He would bark at Daddy whenever Daddy ask him to sit. He would jump on Daddy's chair and rub his fur all over it.
Then, he would run in the house like some crazy dog to piss Mommy off and rummage through the rubbish bin. He would tear up letters and if left in the house, the whole curtains. He wasn't potty trained, or disciplined. He's the type of dog that would never win Dog of The Year, just because he doesn't give a f**k.

He has always been MINE because he would bark whenever I screamed. It was a training for him to know if I'm in danger. Then, he's so attached to me that I cannot leave my house/his sight without him barking till I came home. On Saturday when I sleep, he would sneak upstairs to look for me and jump and lick me till I wake up. He has always been there for me. No questions asked. 

In fact, he's used to doing whatever he wanted.... For almost 15 years. Today, again, he's stubborn for the last time and he spared me the decision to Put Him To Sleep. I've been crying my eyes out for 3 days now thinking that the treatments would work by Saturday.

Despite the fact that, being 4 years working in an animal clinic taught me otherwise. If he wasn't my dog, I know exactly what will happen. He won't last. But, he's more than my dog, he's my family, he's my everything. I'm guilty of wishful thinking.

He had kidney failure and he has suffered. He couldn't walk, move, stand up, lift his head up, eat, pee or poop. All he does is, to lie there. I guess, the pain was just too much.

All I want in the world right now, is to visit him for one last time. But, I can't. This is the first time I'm crying, and I have to wipe my own tears. My tears used to fall on his fur. That's why his fur is mostly white and not the glossy golden brown.

I've always thought that he would live forever. Well, baby comes soon and I would really love it if he could've waited to meet his baby. But dogs know. He knew that I'm going to be OK, and I might not need him as much anymore. I don't need to cry on his head anymore. I don't need hugs anymore because I have my hubby. 

Maybe he knows hubby will take care of me and he's also OK with it. But, I'm not OK with it because he died in a cage. (The whole vet clinic knows him because he ABSOLUTELY REFUSES TO BE IN CAGES AND HE WILL BARK FROM MORNING TILL NIGHT), All alone, and when they wrap his body, he was all alone as well. I didn't get to see him or kiss him goodbye, all I could do is stay at home and cry. 

I fucking feel so useless. After all that we've been through, I just forsaken him like that. 

Thank you all for your thoughts and prayers.

RIP Per Per

This is him before he got admitted. He couldn't move and he was whining because he was in so much pain.

This was the first day he got admitted. He still couldn't move, eat, drink, pee or poo. He looked absolutely miserable.

This was the last day, a few hours before he died. Thank God Daddy visited him but he showed no interest and was just lying there. It really breaks my heart into a million pieces looking at him like that. 

I really hate myself. I can't cry cause it affects baby. I can't visit my only sweetheart and give him a proper send off. I've never been so emotional in my whole life. He was my world. I can't do shit. I can only sit here and cry my eyes out day and night. I really fucking hate myself. 

He has done everything to show me that I meant the world to him, and how did I show him I loved him? I started living my life and neglected him... I'm a horrible human being. 

Monday, September 07, 2015

#9Months #36Weeks

Whoever that said a pregnancy is 9 Freaking Months should be shot in the head resurrected and pulled apart by 4 horsemen!

I clarified with my Dr., and he said pregnancies are normally 40 weeks = 10 Months. and most doctors considers 39 weeks as full term. 

My boss said I look like a Beluga whale. I feel that I'm not that HUGE. Hubby said I looked pregnant and this is the worst month ever. 

1) I fell down. Had an event at work and had to be there by 8AM. When I tried to get up from the bed, I felt woozy and decided to rest longer and when I tried to wake up again, it was OK, until I left the car to the entrance of my office. That's when I felt vertigo and fell. 

2) After working through the weekend, My thighs are aching, my knee where I hit when I fell is bruised, my arms feel like they weight a ton and I might have pulled a tendon or muscle on my right butt cheek and lastly, I feel as if I had a gang bang, in my anal. Huge, swelling haemorrhoids. 

3) Right now, all I want is seafood and if I don't get seafood, all I wanna eat is Salmon. 

4) I'm very impressed with my antibody. Touch wood, I haven't gotten sick since I got pregnant. It must either be the Anmum milk or the pregnancy supplement. 

5) Tiredness is back in full swing..... 

6) I can feel baby kicking/ punching my ribs and all my vital organs. 

7) There's this indescribable feeling of "nesting" that makes me keep buying baby things to ensure baby has everything. 

8) My backache is killing me. 

9) I can't lie down on my back because I find it hard to breathe. 

10) Sleeping is difficult because my bladder gets really full and its hard for me to turn. 

On another note, hubby said he got me a gift!!! HAHAAH!!! 

Monday, August 24, 2015

Hubby's Graduation

Since we couldn't make it to his first graduation in Hong Kong last year because we were in Singapore, he decided to join the local KL graduation at Eastin Hotel. 

He deserved every single moment because he has worked so hard and sacrificed so much just to get his degree. He had to "layan my kerenah", get married to me, pay for the wedding and his studies and handle life in general. 

I have so much love for him because he's everything I wished for and more. He treats me like a Queen and he's the best husband and will be the best daddy to our little baby. I couldn't be any happier and blessed to have him in my life. 

I've never liked graduation ceremonies because it's absolutely, ridiculously boring! I couldn't even sit still for 1 minute before baby start kicking and punching. He really doesn't like me sitting down. I think he feels cramped. HAHAHAH! Poor baby!

Here's some of our fav pictures of the day and we're both in Massimo Dutti. I'm not that huge right? RIGHT????

On the other hand, I was too bored and I decided to take pretty pictures of my mnologie personalized clutch. 

You can check them out on their MNO.logie (WEBSITE), FACEBOOKINSTAGRAM