Tuesday, December 26, 2006

Gratitude Reflection

Well, since i won't be here and i'll be too darn busy during the 31st December and the 1st January 2007 to write this, i might as well stop procrastinating and just finish it done with it! Well after taking a good, long, hard look at my life, and comparing it to people which is not as lucky and this act humbles me. I feel like everything can change in an instant if we don't learn the art of appreciation. Well, here goes....
Things to be thankful for:
1) I got an imperfectly perfect nuclear family.
2) I got education.
3) I got something basic and constantly taken-for-granted handphone.
4) The most revolutionary must-have item my beloved iPod.
5) Adequate clothes to wear.
6) A bunch of imperfectly perfect friends which i could trust with my life.
7) Though i ALWAYS say that i'm broke, Well, I'm NEVER broke.
8) Won lots of cool stuff this year; Movie tix, bags, goodie bags, limited edition move merchandise and some other really cool stuff.
9) Had a great experience as a Student Helper... It was priceless.
10) Made many new friends through Student Helper.
11) Learnt to use Adobe Photoshop and Macromedia Flash and also learnt to play Gunbound!!!
12) Another new house in Nusaputra.
13) I didn't have any MAJOR health threat not like my 2004's knee dislocation.
14) I managed to complete my assignments on time.
15) Didn't fail any subjects.
16) Discovered my self, my dreams and my love.
17) Got a whole load of new books.
18) In 2 months time, I'm no longer a P.
19) Learnt how to use those complicated looking radio thingy.
20) Saw how a movie is filmed real life.

What i hated this year:
1) Generally nothing except the little fights and those seemingly-little-unfair- scenes that actually doesn't matter a lot.

Touch wood, I generally had a great year and pleasant surprises along the way and that taught me to grow a lot and i really hope that the coming year will bring MORE happiness, friends, money, love, luck and everything good. Anyways, I hope year 2007 bring many good wishes and many returns to EVERYONE!!!!!!! Lotsa love, miss elle.

~you know you love me~

Thursday, December 21, 2006

The Impossible Ideology of the Epitome Of Perfection

I've been searching for the perfect blog skin since... Forever!!! Just like my dilemma to get a new pair of decent shoes!!! When it's time to get new shoes, I conjure up the image of the PERFECT shoes... So, Been to every shopping mall in Klang Valley and even Penang and i didn't even see my Perfect shoes. I know what i want and i will not settle for less but my mom said i'm just too darn fussy! and that i should just make my own shoes! Well, back to my blogskin dilemma... I've been through so many skins to last me a lifetime and i still haven't found it... Yet. My friend was saying; Thank god it's only a pair of shoes... Next time, how are you gonna choose your husband? Newsflash: If you know me well enough, I Don't Need A Man or in this case, a Husband! I also can't help being a Libra... Libra are famous for their inability to make decisions... I know how irritated my friend feels whenever i call and not even a hello i say " Faster answer me; A or B?" And the poor person has to randomly choose an alphabet and the line will be disconnected before the poor person could ask why or say bye! And A was Waffle Crisp and B was Capt 'n' Crunch! See how i can't even make a simple decision as to which cereals to buy? God!!!! When will i be able to find my Perfect Blogskin? Or can anyone teach me how to create blogskins? Since i can't manufacture my Perfect shoes, I think i'm capable to create my Perfect blogskin!!!

~you know you love me~

Sunday, December 10, 2006

As Time Goes By

I walked into my room today and i saw that both of my calendars is still at November 03, 2006. I didn't give it much thought as there is no signification or whatsoever of that date. Days later, I begin to realise that it's actually 07 December 2006. Time passed so fast and i didn't even realise it. Soon, It's going to be a new year... Again. I'm not complaining but i feel like it's time i start doing my Gratitude Reflection. What I've learn and achieved and stuff that i feel grateful for. Besides doing a list of what i've lost and gained. Sometimes people say; Wait till next year, la.... I realise now that it's not such a long wait anymore. Time is such a difficult thing. Who knows when our Time will run out? Hopefully, I really hope that I've at least achieved some things to be proud of and also be more thankful with what i have.So, I hope my streamyx connection is good and i also hope that i won't be too lazy to on the computer on 31 December 2006 to write about my Gratitude Reflection. Wish me luck!!!

Saturday, November 18, 2006

Sceneries and Stuffs I Just Gotta Share!

My latest fascination is with clouds and colours. These are the images that inspires me nowadays. Clouds; as a representation of my dreams and colours as the representation of the impact people make in my life!

The peaceful and quite view of Nusaputra; my new hoouse. (Note: I used house instead of home)

The colourful M& M's. Melt in your mouth, Not in your hands! (They do melt in your hands!! Liars!)

The setting sun of my home.

On my way to Seremban when it started to pour. The clouds was grey, white and black... Amazing!

The Beautiful Side of the Moon

Would you believe it if i told u that these are the pictures of the moon? My mom didn't believe me when i told her that. I learnt this technique during my photography class in college and in order to get these pictures, just move your camera! U can achive so many beutiful images of the moon this way! Just make sure that the moon is bright and full!

Just hold the capture button on the cam down and do a circular motion with the camera while holding the button down.

Hold the button down and draw a R shape.

The most simple and basic image; Just 'pull' the camera or make like ur drawing a line down.

A simple scribble.

Try drawing simple patterns and alphabets.

It's so simple and easy; but the outcome is so beutiful! Just move ur camera into anymotion you want while holding down the button! Try it!!!

Sunday, November 05, 2006

The Perfect Man.

Was watching The Perfect Man recently and it's scary how a movie seem to connect with your life. I've already accepted the fact long time ago that Prince Charming does not exist and there is no Perfect Man either. Sometimes a girl don't need a perfect man. just a man who loves her and treats her right. Thats all. Well, I do, at least. Ok, in this movie Heather Locklear plays a mother who shifts states everytime she gets dumped and Hillary Duff plays the daughter that is quite used to her mom's desperate ways until they shifted to Brooklyn, New York. I feel that i can connect to Heather Locklear and in a scene she said, "If you run away, you'll be running away for life." I don't want that. Maybe all my talk about dreams is because i want to run away. Another line is that " You must open your heart to love and to get hurt and not running away". I've always admired those people that are in a relationship. They're really brave to take a risk. I'm not and i never will be able to do that. I really love this story because i'm not only running away, I'm also running away from myself. Believe me when i say i've run away. Whenever there's a confrontation, i run away. when a guy says that he loves me, I run away. I never stay long enough to get hurt or for people to know me and because of that; i missed out a lot. I guess no matter what, I'll still be running away from myself in the future. Telling myself that I'm fulfilling my dreams but I'm just running away. Well, no matter what, I somehow believe that the Perfect Man do exist. He is called your Soulmate. Worried that you're never gonna find him? Well, it's up to your Fate. I believe that my Perfect Man is out there, some where waiting for Fate to bring us together.

Monday, October 30, 2006

I'm an Artemis!!

You scored as Artemis. You are Artemis - goddess of the hunt









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I'm a Fairie!!

You scored as Faerie. Faerie: Aren't you a cute little flying person? Faeries are earth spirits. They live among each element completely hidden. They have cousins called Pixies. Pixies however, are very mischevious. They enjoy tormenting other creatures for fun. Little pranksters.. I hope you never meet one. Pixies have a bad reputation for finding a creature and clinging to them until death. Faeries can be somewhat close to a Pixie, but mostly they are loving, playful, and carry with them a child-like enthusiasm for life. Hide among the pedals of a Daisy, you are a Faerie.













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Sunday, October 29, 2006

Raye is so great!!

I've been craving for authentic nasi lemak for some time now. Not the un-orginal ones but i want the ones with steaming hot rice cooked with santan and a pandan leaf thrown in served with a hard boiled egg and spicy sambal which is not too spicy. When i visited my malay cousin's house, i managed to satisfy my cravings. Besides that, they also served kampong fried chicken and my favourite sambal tumis prawns cooked with petai. The desserts were heavenly and the best is the company.

The majestic tiger.

My niece, cousin Illyia actually made this strawberry masterpiece!

My favourite sambal tumis prawns with petai

An assortment of raya cookies with a western touch!

The traditional malay kuih, Kuih Bangkang!

My lovely niece/cousin Illyia just came back frm Czeh Republic

My nephew/cousin Izmir!!

My bro and Mir listening intently to my dad.. LOL!


America… Land of wonders and opportunities… Last night me and my bro was talking about dreams until almost 3 in the morning. I know that I’m not destined for the normal life.. No one is but they just sort of settle into the rhythm and realized that they are just going to be happy living a lie. A lie that they tell themselves that they wanted all along.. To lead a normal and a non-existent life. A usual cycle where they graduate, look for a job, settle down, have a family, work till they cannot work ,
lead the life of a responsible law abiding citizen till the day they die. They content themselves by forgetting their dream and saying that their dreams now are for their family and they practically live their live for their family. That’s not a dream, it’s an obligation. I realized that people used to have dreams and everyone has dreams but why did they give up their dreams for? Many people said that they did not give up their dreams, their dreams just changed. They became afraid of the unknown; they want to lead the life, their parent’s lead. They want to make their kids lead the life they lead. When dreams die, the people also dies along with they dreams. Dreams push us to succeed, and to have faith in our self. I have dreams and they’re

1) Write a book.
2) Visit 3 countries of my dreams- Greece, Egypt and America
3) To NOT lead a normal life.

So far I’m working on my book titled “Superstar Immigrant” and I hope to finish it as soon as possible. My brother told me... “Why bother when you know you’re going to fail?” and I told him that I dare to dream and I dare to fail. I’d rather die trying than wake up 20 years from now wondering what could have been. At least if I tried, there’s a 50-50 chance that I just might succeed. Fulfilling a dream is not merely fulfilling a dream. It’s that feeling inside, that sense of achievement that surpasses every high, orgasm or what ever great feelings that people are in loved with nowadays. Dreams pushes us to do our very best, with determination and hope anyone can have their dream come true. I love the Mariah Carey’s video; Through The Rain that shows a young girl that ran away from home to fulfill her dreams to be a singer and she became successful and how about Coyote Ugly that tells the story of a small town girl who dance in bars in skimpy outfits just to fulfill her dreams and they guy who fell in love with her and who’s dream is to fulfill her dreams. Dreams are very subjective. To me, dreams will allow me to lead an extraordinary life. A life that most people can only dream about. A life where I can live like I’m dying and live it to the fullest! I want to be like the lyrics in Rascall Flatts song, the soundtrack to the movie Cars; Life Is A Highway…

Life’s a road that you travel on, When there’s one day here and the next day gone, like the road that we travel on…Sometimes you bend, sometimes you standSometimes you turn your back to the windThere's a world outside every darkened doorWhere blues won't haunt you anymoreWhere the brave are free and lovers soarCome ride with me to the distant shoreWe won't hesitate, to break down the garden gateThere's not much time left todayCHORUSLife is a highwayI want to ride it all night longIf you're going my wayI want to drive it all night longThrough all these cities and all these townsIt's in my blood and it's all aroundI love you now like I loved you thenThis is the road and these are the handsFrom Mozambique to those Memphis nightsThe Khyber Pass to Vancouver's lightsKnock me down get back up againYou're in my blood I'm not a lonely manThere's no load I can't holdRoad so rough, this I knowI'll be there when the light comes inTell 'em we're survivorsFulfilling one’s dream is a long and winding road.

I know that in order to fulfill my dreams, I’m going to make my parents mad, sad and angry but I hope only time can heal them and someday, they will somehow respect my dreams and be happy for me instead of subjecting me to lead a normal life. And finally in Paris Hilton’s new video : Nothing In This World… In the end there’s the word… DARE TO DREAM.

The vile and the Horrid.

This has got to be the most vile crap i've ever drank in my life!!! Unfortunately Chai people loves this drink.. and swears by it!!

The ingredients.

The bitter, disgusting, horrid and every word in the dictionary that suggests UGH!!!

Wednesday, October 25, 2006

Hari Raya!!!

I don't know what is wrong with me and why am i trying so hard to keep in touch with my heritage. After very recently had the urge to keep in touch with my chai-ness and celebrated Moon Cake Festival, I now decided to keep in touch with my Malay-ness and celebrate Raya! For those who don't know, my father's side is proudly international. So, for me it's nice to have so many Malay relatives and i can celebrate so many festivals. Unfortunately, i was in a rush so i forgotten to take my camera along with me to snap some pictures.
We first visited my Malay relatives in Ampang and we were treated to a scrumptious traditional malay dishes and also Western dishes. I forget to mention that we're part British also. Maybe next time when i visit them, I'll remember to take my cam to take pictures of my ancestors. The array of food comprises of lasagna, mashed potato, tomato rice, beef rendang, chicken rendang, dry beef rendang, sambal prawns, nasi lemak, briyani rice, and almost 10 types of cakes!! Had fun talking crap with my cousin who also happened to be my best friend in high school. and they're were many people there, such as foreigners, indians, chinese and they're were lots of family members. Nowadays, everybody is equal and everybody is some what mixed. The next time any form ask me to state my race, I'll put Malaysian instead of Chinese.
Feel really lucky to have so many family members and also pround of my some what complicated ancestral tree. Hopefully I'm able to put the picture of my ancestors up as soon as possible. Till the next Raya, Love and kisses from me!

Sunday, October 22, 2006

I Dream of Jeannie.

I recently received another bundle of joy when i got Jeannie on Sunday!!! She's a handful apart from Skipper... Oh, did i mention that she's an American Cocker Spaniel? So she's kinda smaller compared to Skipper which is a Cocker Spaniel.. Cocker Spaniels are so intelligent and so lovable and so adorable!! They will surely get a lifetime of my love.I love them both so much!! Well, Double the joy, Double the fun, Double the happiness and Double the mess!!

Me and Skipper and Jeannie!!

Me and Jeannie

Skipper's look of LOVE!

Jeannie looking for fun!

She's kinda small but she's a handful!

Tuesday, October 17, 2006

Birthdays and Cousins

My darling cousin, Wen Jing

Me and Boy- Boy

Me and Wen Jing

Boy-Boy is such a cam hogger

Wen Jing looks so innocent

My bro's sbirthday cake!! Fruit Flan

The birthday boy, Darrell.. who's birthday is just 4 days after my birthday!!! And he insist that he's the most handsomest, coolest, leng chai..... and the crappiest!!! He thinks he's so hot!!!.... But he's so Not!!!

Thursday, October 12, 2006

My Birthday!

Delicious Sweet and sour crabs

Steamed Man tou

Quaker Prawns

La la and bihun

Fried Mantou

Deep Fried Squid

4 Beans fried with Belacan

My Mom

My Grams

My Dad

Beautiful view.. So hazy!!

The entrance to the restaurant. It's built on top of a sea.

The view before entering the restaurant

My Birthday cake!!!

The view of another ship from the restaurant.