Thursday, June 26, 2008

Padrekins in NY

Today, Padrekins went back to New York without me.... again! I'm not that bothered about Madrekins and Darry not going but I *HEART* New York and the least Padrekins could do was to let me tag along! But unfortunately, he'll feel as if i'm in constant danger in New York thus hinder his ability to focus on his major projects!

But he offered to do my shopping for me so thats fine! And I have a lot of stuff to get! He's complaining that it's a chore to travel 20 hours just to get there! At least he doesn't have to transit in Hong Kong because he's flying to Stockholm then straight to LAX.. If only he brings me along!!! Would be the best time of my life!!

He cansiders himself a New Yorker now.. Since he flies there more than any other country, he thinks its easier to just consider telling everyone that he's from New York.. He'll be going to Canada in July/August and from there back to New York again... I'm running low on ideas on what else to get there! Would love some Pop Tarts, Krispy Kreme and Phyllo pastry but they are perishable goods so no point! I doubt they'll be able to stand an 20 hours flight!!

I'm also testing out Blogspot's Scheduled Post, By and IF this post is published, Padrekins is en route to New York and i'm probably having dim sum with Madrekins and then a day of shopping with Xiying and maybe watching a movie with XBF.. haha...

Results for Semester 1, 2008 will be released on the 30 June, 2008 on a Monday and i'm so bloody nervous!!! Everything that I did last semester will be judged on Monday. Whether I tried my best or there's room for improvement! I can relate to how criminals feel when the judge will pass their judgement! Guilty or Not Guilty?

I really have to Pass Stats!! When I put my status on Facebook, anticipating the outcomes and contemplating her options, i was referring to my results. The contemplating her options was referring to my Stats options. IF i don't pass,my options are:
Option 1) Re-sit the paper
Option 2) Re-take the subject
Option 3) Appeal to do a Supplementary Assignment (provided i have certain marks!)
Option 4) Drop my Major (Only applicable for me & Ella cause we're both doing Major and Minor respectively!)

Well, I'll post up my results once i get them!! Till then...

~you know you love me~
Michelle May

Thursday, June 19, 2008

Beauty & The Beast The Musical

My favourite fairytale ever besides 12 Dancing Princesses is Beauty and the Beast. Maybe because it teaches us to not judge a book by its cover or just the many symbolic messages in the story. I love Beauty and the beast because i find that among all fairytales, its easier to relate to beauty and the beast.

Maybe because Beauty is from a normal family. She is neither rich nor poor and she's very simple. Beast on the other hand, is hideous with a frightful image. 2 very different people who fall in love and live happily ever after. No dragons to fight, no Prince Charming to dash into the story, and most importantly, no damsel in distress!

In fact, it tells us to look beneath a person's looks before judging them. Yes, the Beast is frightening and hideously ugly but he has a heart of gold. And Beauty don't need any Prince Charming to rescue her, in fact, she rescued him! It just the little things in the story and it uses a red rose to symbolize love and life.

Such a compelling fairytale has landed in Malaysia and I would really love to catch it but tickets are just too expensive! The other musical which i missed was My Fair Lady. Due to unforeseen circumstances even though I spent the whole day with the cast!! It was such a waste!! But if i had a chance to go for Beauty and the Beast, I wouldn't miss it for the world!!!

So, erm... any generous person who wants to donate tickets to me? Would really appreciate it!! Hmmm... I have a feeling i'll miss this musical as well!!

I want to take a moment of silence to send my condolences to the family, friends and girlfriend of Alfred Jerome Ham and also to Anndrina's grandmother who passed away recently.. They'll forever be missed and will always be in our prayers! Till then..

~you know you love me~
Michelle May

Wednesday, June 18, 2008

Gouda's Gilde and Brownie Kukus

Have you tried Gouda's Gilde siroopwafelen? It's really good but only available in Germany and the Europe I think! Actually its called Syrup Waffle in English and its first made by a town called Gouda in Holland. In fact, siroopwafelen is a food for the poor. Siroopwafelen is 2 pieces of waffles held together in the middle with syrup. Hence, the name siroopwafelen. The best siroopwafelen is made by Van Der Breggen. The best way to enjoy siroopwafelen is to brew a steaming hot coffee or tea and place the siroopwafelen on top of the glass. The steam from the hot coffee or tea will warm the siroopwafelen and making them taste and smell freshly baked! It taste so good but so difficult to get since its a Holland traditional food! me and familia ate it back in 2006 and we still long for it! It's hard to get over the taste! Only this brand is the best!
If you're ever in Europe, try to buy the siroopwafelen. I give Gouda's Gilde Siroopwafelen a 9.5/10! It costs 8 pounds per 10 pieces in a box!

I've never tried brownie kukus before. This is the most popular brownie and its a must buy for those who goes to Bandung. Bandung is in Indonesia, FYI.. The brownie has to be served chilled and we recently got a box from A. Sharon who loved this brownie so much, she had someone to courier 2 to 3 boxes back to Malaysia. She gave us a box! It was surprisingly good because it wasn't hard like some brownies! In fact, its moist, chocolatey and chewy! Overall, i give Amanda's Brownie Kukus a 8/10! and it costs 35,000 Rupiahs for a box!

~you know you love me~
Michelle May

Tuesday, June 17, 2008

Wait For You Reply

Sorry to post this up when the song's novelty has already been gone.. This lyrics is the reply to the song Wait For You by Eliott Yamin.

Wait For You Reply
I never felt as bad as i just did before,
Now i'm hurting you and i'm wishing you'll move on with your life,
I really had to go,
If I had let you know,
You wouldn't let me go,
You know I won't stay and I can't give you a chance,
What good will it do? Cause you just cannot understand,
My heart is breaking, as I left you crying, I had to turn away...

It wasn't my pride that made me run and hide,
I'm afraid of hurting you,
You have no idea what I kept inside,
We were just never destined to be...

So baby please don't wait for me,
You have to move on, please be free,
We never really had a chance,
Don't waste the rest of your life,
Baby, please don't wait for me,
Please don't fight it cause I don't love you,
You think you need me in your life,
No matter whatever you do, I won't love you...

Its been a long time since I avoided you,
I was feeling relieved,
I had to walk away,
There was nothing the same,
I had to do it baby,
Please don't be stupid i will never come back,
You never told me that you still love me like that,
I just can't look at you, You look so hurt and sad,
I saw you crying,
Baby, you know that I had to walk away,
Things were different from when they were,
If I gave us a chance, we will hurt again,
Cause our love can never just be enough...



Baby please don't wait for me,
Baby please don't wait for me,
You have to move on, be free....


~You know you love me~
Michelle May

Additional Postings

While I'm enjoying staying up late and waking up even later, i've been doing a lot of thinking. Besides the love for the English language and being able to write like my Dad, We're more alike than I think we are! You see, I admire my dad for his perseverance and not giving up attitude. I guess thats where I got my responsibility, perseverance and don't give up attitude!

Like i mentioned how much i hate people who gives up easily and I have no respect for them, I'm grateful my dad isn't those who gives up easily. Even though his business took a fall and he was unemployed for a few years, he did menial jobs to sustain the family instead of just giving up and staying at home. He also taught me responsibility by always taking responsibility for my actions. Thats why no matter I'm right or wrong, I'll always take responsibilities for my actions.

Another thing in common is our love for books. He loves books and everyone knows i'm such a bookworm. In fact he loves motivational and business books like Blue Ocean Strategy and Secrets of the Millionaire Mind while I prefer books like A Year Without Made In China, languages, philosophical and poems. We both think that New York is the best city ever!!

To elaborate on my Breathless post, i wanted to add some moments. Another breathless moment was the accidental discovery of my Malay relatives. See, in Form 4 I was quite close with this guy Izmir. Typical bad mouthed but with a kind heart some where in his body. We used to argue all the time. Until we went to a restaurant in Bangsar and his dad shouted "Uncle!" and ran and hugged my dad and my dad was so happy to see him and introduced us as cousins. I was like breathless... In a bad way cause among 26.6 million people in Malaysia, I had to be related to him! But everything was better and he protected me all through Form 5..

Breathless moment happened all the way when I was working at The Star. On my first day, I attended the funeral of a raped and murdered 7 year old Myanmar girl and I was breathless that almost a thousand people turned up. The sight of the people braving rain and sun was just so wow!! Another time was meeting Paddy Bowie. If you don't know her, look her up. I was there to witness her receiving her Order of the British Empire (OBE) and also when she introduced Kam Raslan, the author of The Confessions of An Old Boy.

Working at The Star never had a dull moment. In fact, I really miss working there. Miss all the people so darned much! I just loved the adventure, to experience things that normal people can't. It's really, really educational and it leaves you breathless most of the time!

Till then....

~you know you love me~
Michelle May

Saturday, June 14, 2008

Happy Father's Day

Padrekin being interviewed by Australian press back when he was the Team Manager for Suzuki at Melbourne, Australia rally.

Managed to finally finished watching Season 1 of Nip/Tuck and there was an episode about fathers. A patient said that he wanted to be remembered as a father who was brave and who lived his life, not some pussy! I think about my father. Was he brave? Did he lived his life to the fullest? I don't know...

Growing up with Padrekins was certainly interesting... He knew ways to make money. He and madrekins always managed to give us new uniforms every year, new books, new bags, new stationeries, and they always made sure we were equipped... He started out in NST, to a musician (from where he got my mom!) to a rally driver (where he injured his leg!) to a rally team manager (where he travelled extensively!) to presently, a consultant for Hypertune and the food industry.. (Halal, logistics and opening up markets!)

He knows that if he wants to fulfill all his my wants and needs, he has to work very hard to provide for the family. He was the type to spend for the present while madrekins was more of the saving for the future thing. Padrekins was the one who surprises me with books, extra allowances and lap top. Anyways, the quetion was, was he brave? I would like to think so... racing cars and cars in general has always been his passion. I don't know anyone else who has a dad who is a rally driver. Even though back in primary school, people asked me whether madrekins was a single mom!

Brave is another thing when he has to travel a lot so i used to remember going to airports all the time, and crying! when i was a child! Being brave also explains the way he ventures into different industries. Being in different industries means starting all over again from scratch. Padrekins has always been a great dad.. Whenever we have the extra money, we'll go for holidays. He doesn't keep the money for himself. Every single cent goes to the family. Which was great!

Even though he may nag a lot, i know he means well... Sometimes, seeing parentals growing older, we wonder whether are we now the way they brought us up? Besides having padrekins nose, oily skin and dark skin, do I have padrekins talent, bravery, and money making skills? I don't know. Its fathers day and i cannot think of a single thing that he wants. Maybe all he wants is for me to be someone in the world, to be able to lead a comfortable life, to take care of them when they're older and maybe just listen to them when they speak.

I know that Padrekins will always be there. I remembered when the car wouldn't start, or when there was knocking in my room, and the time when i needed to renew my license and pay my summons. Who did i call? I call padrekins. Even for Shi Nee Lee, whenever anything goes wrong, she'll call her dad first. I wonder whether are all dads the same? Willing to sacrifice for the family in order to give the family a more comfortable life? Even if they don't deserve it. Family is a very strange concept.

They're there for you, love you unconditionally, accepts you for who you are and yet, we are rude to them, we hurt them, we say things we don't mean, and we treat them badly. Strange isn't it? I cannot imagine loving another person, sacrificing for that person just to be treated badly... Maybe thats why i'm not cut out to being a parent!

Anyways, this post is dedicated to Eddy Goh (as most of you know by now!) in conjunction of Father's Day... Pa, I know you're proud of me... I know for certain I inherited your love for the English language and your love for the written word.. Till then...

~you know you love me~
Michelle May

My Haven

My bookshelves. As you can tell that I love books! And my laptop..
Every person needs this by their bed-side table... I make sure that mine is replenished.. Keeps me sane..

I love my room ever since it's been redesigned by me! I love that everything is finally symmetrical with enough space for Padrekins to practise Qi Gong and me to store all my stuff. I admit that i'm a hoarder and I try to throw things but some things have emotional value...

Every bookworm should have a really good bookshelf. I love my white Ikea ones! It matches my white bed, and white drawers! I have too many books which i've accumulated for the past years.. With white however, i find it a chore to clean the shelves every week... But, the proud feeling of all my books is satifying enough. Uncle Nick actually once said, "Wah!! You have so many books and a beautiful room! Very airy, and cosy.."

I hate to admit it but i'm a very stressful person... I get stressed very easily and who do i turn to? My saviour! Absolut, Bombay, Smirnoff, JD, and JW... I'm not asking you to overdose and get high but I drink enough to just have a good night's sleep.. I don't want to think about Stats when i'm sleeping... In fact, I don't want to about anything at all! Well, Madrekins found out and she was commenting on being an alcoholic.. Until I told her that I owe all my Distinctions to acohol and i'm not totally dependend on it so she's cool. Anything for Distinction..

So, as you can see my room is my haven. It is so me! It shows off my taste, my style and my stuff.. I don't like rooms being too cluttered as well... I designed the room in a way that the center of the room is empty... So, it has a spacious feel even though the room is small. Maximizing space... Till then..

~you know you love me~
Michelle May

Tuesday, June 10, 2008

Karma of Shelter Home

Have you been to a children's home? Have you ever walked into a house called a home and yet feel so bare? I went with A. Candy and Madrekins to Shelter Home in PJ, a shelter for kids. I had in fact met with the director on my first day of work at The Star and he was a very generous man. That was the day i learnt the c-word, COMPASSION from Mr. James or Brother James.

In fact, its funny to recall that we met each other at a cemetary. I will never forget that day because it wasn't only my first day at work but also my first child burial. Remember the story of a 5-7 year old girl who got raped and her arms chopped off and thrown into some bushes? We'll we attended her funeral. In which James sent me back to the office.

I never met anyone like him. Until I visited Shelter Home last 2 Saturdays ago. The children were nice and friendly. Like how normally children are. They were inquisitive as to the visitors in the home. A. Candy asked them what they needed and they needed a fridge. She bought them a new fridge days ago. Not any one door fridge but a whole complete 3-doors fridge of the latest model. Today, she got a free trip.

She was going off to London some where in July and she was informed of her free trip to Greece. It came just in time because its a cruise and it was really great. See, karma.. Well, I want to talk about the home. It was a single-storey bungalow, very spacious, very clean with a well kept garden around it. Madrekins and A. Candy was surprisingly shocked to see how clean, organized, and well maintained home it was.

Normally, shelter homes are like cluttered, messy, etc but this is the best kept home. Went there to talk to them, interact with the children. For me, it's a humbling experience because i grew up with everything i ever wanted and yet i wasn't grateful. I lost interest in my toys at most a week. But these kids have nobody, and everything has to be shared. Even the toys and the books. When I went home, I saw all my Enid Blytons, my toys, my dolls and decided to donate them to the home.

Sometimes, you just wonder, whether are we really a bad person? I think about that everyday. On one hand, I'm mean, bitchy to other people and i treat them like crap. Sometimes i wonder, if i were to stab my chest, will I even bleed? I don't know because i'm heartless and I don't think heartless people bleeds. But then again, i have compassion for animals and children. If I were heartless, I wouldn't get angry when people kill animals and neither will I donate my stuff to children. I have a lot to think about...

Till then, take care.

~you know you love me~
Michelle May

It's not you...

You have to find something that you love enough to be able to take risks, jump over the hurdles and break through the brick walls that are always going to be placed in front of you. If you don't have that kind of feeling for what it is you are doing, you'll stop at the first giant hurdle.”George Lucas

"Its not you, I've never loved anyone..." said Dr. Christian Troy (Julian McMahon) when he traded his girlfriend for a Lamborghini. I'm not the girl they think i'm at all. In fact, far from it. If i was Dr. Troy, I think i would do the same thing. The probability is very high.

I don't think i have ever loved anyone besides myself, my family (My parentals, Darry, Chin family) and my dog and maybe my friends. (Certain few!) I used to think that i like a certain guy, crazy for him and then ask myself; Would I trade him for money? and yes. Then the poor guy loses his novelty and like Unknown said, "Drop him like its hot"

I need to find a guy that i won't trade for anything in the world. The lastest news is that we've broken up. It's for the best. We're 2 different people.... I can never be his type and he can never be my type. Besides, a tiger can't change its stripes. I'll always be flirting with other guys, hanging out with them, and liking them..

Aaron: So now u r free...
Me: I've always been free..
Maybe i'm like a bird. I can't be put in a cage. I'm the happiest, flying around, free. Breaking up was mutual and we're still great friends... I'm citing irreconcilable differences. I'm not affected.. Maybe its just for the best. Some people are meant to be friends while some are meant to be more than that. In our case, we're meant to be friends. Nothing more than that.

A tip for looking for the guy, it's got to be that can't eat, can't sleep, reach for the stars, over the fence world series kind of feeling. Then you'll know you're in love.

Well, its no point blaming any other parties. It wasn't anyone's fault. We were just not meant for each other. Simple as that. I never knew breaking up can be so simple, easy and most importantly, painless. We were just 2 lonely people trying to make something out of this cold world. But we were not meant to be. I'm feeling better. Moving on.

Till then,

~you know you love me~
Michelle May

Monday, June 09, 2008

Right or Wrong?

The question of ethics come into play recently... Is it morally correct to be in a relationship with a person and yet have no feelings for them? Is it morally correct to deceive a person in order to protect them? All we want is the best for the other person. If I have to tell a lie, to keep the other person happy... I would. Willingly.

I don't think there is a simple thing as being right or wrong. In fact, the word right or wrong are just the stereotypical moral compass. For example,the story Robin Hood. Was stealing and giving to the poor right or wrong?

I think that criminals play an important part in our society. It helps shape our beliefs and construct values to be taught to the younger generation. Going back to my Robin Hood story, some may think he's right and some may think its wrong. I think it's up to you. Being right or wrong is living life in only black or white. Times have changed and now, it is possible to lead a grey life.

You see, humans constanly compare themselves. When we compare ourselves to criminals, we think we are doing the right thing. An example, MR.B compared himself to a criminal that just robbed, raped and killed a women. He felt really good because compared to the criminal because he just conned an old women of her life savings to send his children to college. But, after comparing himself to the criminal, MR.B felt better. He didn't do anything wrong... He just conned an old women who probably didn't even need that much of money compared to the criminal who robbed, raped and murdered the women! So, what is right and what is wrong?

Its just like lying. Lying is a bad thing. But what if we lied to protect someone? would it be wrong or right? There are many reasons for telling a lie. Maybe we know that the person won't be able to handle the truth so we tell a lie. The world is so complicated now. What may be right last time is no longer right, right now.

Tell me what you think. Am I right or am I wrong?

Being right or being wrong?
Sometimes I wonder,
Does it even matter?

~you know you love me~
Michelle May

Sunday, June 08, 2008

My Song, Cause I'm a Beautiful Mess! ;p

"A Beautiful Mess" by Jason Mraz

You've got the best of both worlds
You're the kind of girl who can take down a man,
And lift him back up again
You are strong but you're needy,
Humble but you're greedy
Based on your body language,
your shouted cursive I've been reading
You're style is quite selective,
though your mind is rather reckless
Well I guess it just suggests
that this is just what happiness is

Hey, what a beautiful mess this is
It's like picking up trash in dresses

Well it kind of hurts when the kind of words you write
Kind of turn themselves into knives
And don't mind my nerve you can call it fiction
'Cause I like being submerged in your contradictions dear
'Cause here we are, here we are

Although you were biased I love your advice
Your comebacks they're quick
And probably have to do with your insecurities
There's no shame in being crazy,
Depending on how you take these
Words that paraphrasing this relationship we're staging

And it's a beautiful mess, yes it is
It's like, we are picking up trash in dresses

Well it kind of hurts when the kind of words you say
Kind of turn themselves into blades
And the kind and courteous is a life I've heard
But it's nice to say that we played in the dirt
Cause here, here we are, Here we are
Here we are [x7]

You know the feeling? Once in a while there's a song that really speaks to you? Well,i love Jason Mraz so darn much!! I've loved all his songs! And he's really cute with a plus that he's a surfer dude type. Surfer dudes are like laid back, relaxed, easy going and philosophical.. Speaking through experiences! This song tells me that no matter how imperfect i may be, he still loves me. He loves me even though I may be reckless, sarcastic, clumsy, and a contradiction.. In fact, its these things that made him love me even more!!

I can go on and on about Jason Mraz. It's like he even loves me if i was to play in the dirt and throw out the trash. Maybe thats the type of guy i need. The type that I don't have to pretend to be someone i'm not. Sometimes It's just too tiring. It's like everyone's eyes is on me. What I do, what i say. what i wear, who i speak to... I want a guy that can accept me looking all messy from gardening and walking the dog. He can accept me looking like crap and yet i'm still the most beautiful view he has ever seen!

Shi Nee Lee Freeman's cousin is one of a fine example, She's only a teenager and she has a bf and the best part is, she's too self conscious to even eat in front of her bf!! I cannot live that way! Living someone else's life! Besides that, I'm independent, opionated and a paradox... It takes a guy great patience.. However, sometimes its just not enough... Maybe thats why i tend to be a "conniving, manipulative, flirtatious but so very irresistable person!!" Sigh... I have no idea what i'm blabbering..

Maybe i'm just unhappy with the way current things are going right now. Maybe i just have impossibly high standards, maybe i'm just too independent and opionated, maybe i'm just too used to being with myself, maybe i'm just too stupid, maybe i'm just too unfair, maybe? A few years from now, i'll think about the 2 most regretful words in the English language, WHAT IF? (Listen to What If by Kate Winslet)

Now I'm feeling the song by Jesse McCartney, Leavin'. I don't know why, all i'm writing are my real feelings and hopefully what i'm doing is correct? Correct is rhetoric.. What is correct? Everything here is a metaphor.. Don't you think so? Maybe going my own way is inevitable. Till then...

~you know you love me~
Michelle May

Thursday, June 05, 2008

I'd rather go naked!

Imogen Bailey, Australian model is the latest Peta ad celeb for their Fur is Dead campaign in SEA.
This is the Imogen Bailey Peta ad from Seoul. She bares it all for Fur is Dead campaign! and also so tastefully done!
This is Eva Mendes for the Fur is Dead campaign. It's not porno or vulgar but tasteful.
This is Jay Hernandez for Fur is Dead campaign!!
Recognise any of them? Try guessing!!

I really admire Peta and their ads!! They always come up with eye-cathing and tasteful ads. Here are soem ads featuring Eva Mendes, Imogen Bailey and Jay Hernandez. I read with much interest about Sharon Stone. Here's an incerpt:

She said, "All these earthquakes and stuff happened and I thought, `Is that karma?' When you are not nice, bad things happen to you."I'm not happy about how the Chinese are treating the Tibetans, I don't think anyone should be unkind to anyone else."They're not being very nice to the Dali Lama, who's a good friend of mine."

I don't care if millions of people started attacking her but I admire her courage for speaking out and not conforming to the stereotypical media potrayal of apathy whenever there's a natural disaster. And in yesterday's THE STAR/ CLOVE, Alaistair Tan called her remarks "stupid".

Making my choice, I'd rather be called stupid and have my own opinion than conforming to a certain media potrayal of an image. Which is, well, STUPID!! Earthquakes, typhoons and all forms of natural disasters don't just happen for nothing.

Natural disaster happens when Mother Nature cannot take it anymore. Most religions no matter what, believes that you have to do good things. If you don't do good things, Bad things will happen to you. A fairly simple teaching. In fact this teaching is the fundamental building blocks of the creation of religion. China got what is coming to themselves! No one to blame but them. The main fur exporter and the largest contributor to Carbon Dioxcide.

I notice that Chinese people are very selfish. I was at GSC with bf and xiying. When xiying and I went to the toilet, this chinese women and her 4-5 year old son came in. She washed his hands and normally a person just use a sheet of tissues to dry their hands but since the tissue dispenser in GSC is the sensor type, the little kid keep putting his hand near the sensor, releasing up to 7 sheets of tissues! The mother has the guts to ask, "Nice to play aR? You want some more?" Since she was carrying him so that he could release more tissues! I'm not some tissue hoarding person but don't they know where tissues that they're chucking into the bin comes from?

I really believe that China got what it deserves and should be punished more. Even though we have totally different reasons, our believes are the same. I would respect her even further if she didn't apologised and instead stood by her beliefs. Anyways, I'm the type of person who doesn't really care what others think. I'm also the type to take responsibility for my words and actions. So, if you think i'm "stupid", heartless, and discriminatory, tell it to my face or leave a comment!

If you love me then Thank you, If you hate me then, F**k you!!

~you know you love me~
Michelle May


My Loudes Skipper Maximillian Casino Precious Cognac looking so darn cute rite?
I know i'm outdated but I only managed to watch this movie yesterday! I was busy ok?!
As usual, xy loves the Ms. Read environment... Comfy enough to catch some snooze!
Bf looking smart!
Harrison waiting for his bus..
Had a fairly simple outing last night right after Stats. Stats is depressing and had to discuss my "options" with my lecturer after the exam!! But I have 2 weeks to pray and hope... But it's gonna be depressing if i'm gonna talk about my Stats!

Had dinner at Ms. Read with xy, bf, Harrison and Shi Nee Lee Freeman turned up 2 hours late , half drunk and losing her voice. Her Pesto Spaghettini with Chargrilled Chicken which was served green turned brown! And she still have the guts to make a fuss about it!!

Yesterday was a very "thoughtful" day. Certain times of the day got me thinking..

This is at Ms. Read and Harrison couldn't catch the bus and he asked Shi Nee to send him back.

I told him off saying that its impossible for Shi Nee to drive from OU to Bangsar and back to Damansara to get home to Bkt Jelutong. He left with a disappointed look.

Shi Nee and xy said I was mean to dismiss him like that.

This happened after the movie, around 11.45 when I dropped xy at the taxi stand.

I would have loved to send her back but its out of my way and all the way to Kepong and with the petrol price increase, Madrekins will not let me have the car anymore, hence, no more going out till late night for me! And i felt bad leaving her, a girl at the taxi stand at almost mid night.

This happened at Ms. Read where we were talking to Harrison.

I keep "attacking" him about his shallow preferences of chinese girls that are fair. I find it shallow because he gets sad and depressed when girls don't like him back. I felt terribly mean and it looks as if i have some personal vendetta against him!

Well, I don't think i'll dwell on it for so long... Now, I got some orientation on Friday which I would have to go and grandma is at home alone... sigh. Anyways, till then....

~you know you love me~
Michelle May

Sunday, June 01, 2008


A character said this line in a movie that day but I can't recall which movie, "life is not about how many breath you take, its about the moments that take your breath away" It got me thinking, "Have I experienced moments that left me breathless?" The sceptic in me shouts "NO!!!" straight away but I do recall a few incidents.

You see, I'm the type of person who loves filing. When I was younger, I used to file, and organize all my stuff to relieve stress. Now, as an adult, It becomes a habit. I file and organize my thoughts in my mind. I can block out unpleasant thoughts and file all my nice, happy thoughts by year in my mind.

The moment that left me breathless was back in Standard 6. I made it into the Top 5 in the class and Padrekins picked me up early. Back then, we weren't well to do and God knows how much I love dogs. I didn't have any pets back then. Padrekins had a big present in the car and he gave it to me. When I opened the present, it was a huge book on dogs and it must've cost a bomb.

The second moment was a choral speaking competition also in Standard 6. I was nervous and when it was our group's turn to speak, I thought my heart would have exploded by the pressure. Back in Primary school, I was the total opposite of me right now. I had no confidence, no friends, no nothing! So, choral speaking or speaking in public was tough!

The third moment happened 2 years ago. When Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince came out. Padrekins knew that I love Harry Potter and he also knew I couldn't afford the price. So of course I was sad and depressed on the day that they released the book. Padrekins was already at home when I came back with Madrekins and he gave me the book. I was surprised and elated.

And the most memorable breathless moment was Precious. Madrekins had a friend in the Zoo that adopted a Cocker Spaniel. He couldn't care for it because the animals in the zoo takes up most of his time and he has to put him up for adoption. We drove all the way to the Zoo and when I saw him, I was breathless!! A beautiful, golden brown Cocker Spaniel with the most cutest brown eyes!! When we took him home and he started exploring his new house, the strange fluffy long-eared creatures (my other pet rabbits!) and the fact that he's all mine made me the happiest person on Earth! Nothing beats that thought now. That's where my "Breathless moments" end.

Lourdes Skipper Maximillian Casino Precious Cognac made himself the king of the house by making himself comfortable in Padrekin's chair. Padrekins always say, "This chair is for the Master of the house to sit. So, no one but me sits on it!!" And the first thing Precious did was to make himself very comfortable in THAT particular chair!! Funny, no?

Hope you enjoyed some flashback and glimpses back when I wasn't Miss Michelle. Time sure change!! Also, hope you enjoy the little family album picture of Precious. Just a little peek into my life... Back when I was just simply Michelle.

~you know you love me~

Michelle May


Made In China

A Year Without Made In China by Sara Bongiorni, Published by John Wiley & Sons, RM 79.80.

For those who are not aware of the most controversial book, A Year Without Made In China by Sara Bongiorni have to rush to major bookstores NOW and grab it, pay RM79.80 for it and read it!! By reading this book, you will learn sooo much more about the global economy players. If this was me last year, I wouldn't even pick this book up.. Will probably have gotten the 2 last books to complete my Gossip Girl collection! But, the new me has grown up interested in the world, business, and politics.. I'm being very serious here!

I do enjoy the occasional chick lit, in fact i'm waiting to read Thank For The Memories by Cecilia Ahern and Remember Me by Sophie Kinsella. But i'm not here to talk about my preferred reading materials, instead, I'm here to review A Year Without Made In China...

Even though I hate the chinese because of their lifestyles and etc, i truly admire Sara Bongiorni to actually try and live without China made goods. We've never really take the time to read labels as to where most of our household goods comes from. We take everything for granted. If you were to read every label as to the country of origin, you'll find Assembled In China, Manufactured In China, and lastly, Made In China..

The whole point is, whether we like it or not, every country depends on China. China produces most of the American goods and monopolizes the market and causes millions of Americans to lose their jobs due to the great production difference of outsourcing. China goods are undeniably waaay cheaper compared to goods of other countries. In America, there used to be 400 over shoes manufacturers and now, the remaining 5 has to survive the competition.

Sara Bongiorni has to ive one (1) whole year without made in China goods and it's proven a very difficult way to live. Everything from shoes, sunglasses, bags, electronic gadgets, clothes and even toothbrushes are made in China. One cannot name a product that isn't made in China.. China is a global economy player and local markets evrywhere are saturated with China goods. The cheap price of labour, has eliminated all forms of competition and the advancement in technology to "mimick" designer goods has further monopolized all forms of market sector.

I don't think anyone or any country can live without China. If China was to stop exporting China made goods into every country, there'll be chaos, uneven economic distribution and most importantly, countries will be thrown into turmoil. Our dependency for made in China goods are the main factors that the presence of China is felt in every Tesco, Carrefour, our very own Giant, K-Mart, Wal-Mart, Target and believe it or not even Burberry and Ralph Lauren designs are manufactured in China!

I don't think I would be able to live without China for a year, let alone a week!! I can never deprive myself of my one true hobby:Shopping!! and since most of the stuff are made in China, I can never be cruel to myself.. I can IMAGINE for myself living without made in China goods for a year through this book! It really opens up your eyes to the world!! I'd say that I can never see China the same anymore... Oh, by the way, the book is printed in the United States of America.. *Amen*

Till then,

~you know you love me~
Michelle May