Monday, April 06, 2009

How Do You Sleep??

How Do You Sleep? by Jesse McCartney feat Ludacris.

Come to think about it, it's been 2-3 years since I broke up with Scott.

"It's been a year now, Ain't seen or heard from you, I've been missing you crazy, How do you, How do you sleep?"

I remembered how close we were and how crazy in love we were but I've missed him ever since THAT fight and he left without saying goodbye. Even until now, I can't think of airports without thinking of him.

Sometimes I still stay awake thinking of him. Sometimes I wonder whether you're also thinking of me? I hate this. I remembered how much he's hurt me, I still have to go on with my life like nothing has happened. After him, I didn't think I could love anyone like I loved him.

They say " Don't do unto others, what you don't want others to do unto you" but I treat my BF the same way he treated me. I feel bad. I feel stupid that he's no longer with me and I still think about him!

I like to think that I've moved on but it's been years and I still think about him. I can't tell anyone cause they'll just think I'm stupid. "Not only do I miss your ways, But I miss the conversation too, Tell me that you've been gettin no sleep, Can't think, can't eat until you come and see me"

How I wish you could feel my pain. How could you??? I couldn't get you off my mind even if I tried. I keep thinking of what could've been!

And yes, due to the current economic recession, I won't be able to attend AMUNC this year. Because of that, I'm terribly upset and devastated. Also because of the recession, Padrekins won't be going to NY this July as well. I think he's upset that there's no more spending twice a year in NY anymore. God only knows how much he loves NY! sigh.

~you know you love me~
Michelle May

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