Tuesday, November 30, 2010

Princess, Charleston and Queen of the Nile!





















Have some events to attend hence the dress up session. The only thing I own are those fabulous peep toe heels! On a different note, Beginning to love Valleygirl because I technically spent so much there! Today, I bought a pair of killer heels, a black lace dress and 2 bikinis! All for 90 AUD!

More pictures soon! And oh, the bitch is back, are you ready for me?

~you know I'm just that bitchy~
Michelle May
xoox

Friday, November 26, 2010

Showgirl!











I stripped down to sequins, feathers, bling bling and all that glitters! I love the headpiece and shoes! Don't you think I look glamorous? All in the name of fun! Don't you know I love fun! Guilty of having too much fun over here!

~j'adore me~
Michelle May
xoox

Darling Harbour

National Maritime Museum with battle ships, pirate ships and etc! Really interesting!!!



A view of the Harbour and Sydney on the way to Chatswood, North Sydney!

This is Luna Park and it's like those theme parks in the USA!







I took the long, scenic route leaving Sydney city.

You need to cross a huge bridge to the side that says Darling Harbour! LOL!

Lunch was at Kobe Jones with Xav and Aunty Serina by the pier. It's 25 AUD for 3 plates of sushi.

Since I'm pretty much the solo traveller, I've been exploring the whole Sydney by myself. With the help of my faithful map and the occasional help from my GPS (Don't tell Xav cause he's so sure I'll get lost!) and also a teeny weeny help from the friendly people.

I've technically been taking the train and the walking! Yes, I walk for hours on some end! Walking is good. I walked from Town Hall to Paddy's Market in Haymarket and back to Town Hall and to Darling Harbour and from there to Wynyard and the train to Chatswood, North Sydney and then a train back to Padstow.

~you know you adore me~
Michelle May
xoox

Tuesday, November 23, 2010

R.I.P Jo Jo; The British Shorthair











I mentioned in my previous post that I miss Jo Jo, my little British Shorthair. Dr.Eunice wrote on my FB wall today that my Jo Jo is recumbent and he hasn't eaten in 4 days and he's on drips. A few hours later, she informed me that he passed away. He didn't make it through the night and my baby is dead.

I loved him and even though he was a little "ham sap" meaning, he loved to put his head between my cleavage and he loves being with people. He would come out of his little box just to peep at who's walking pass his cage and didn't pet him.

I guess I loved him and spoilt him and Dr. Sathi used to disturb him just because to even it. He said, you can't spoil a cat. Jo Jo and Baby the 2 British Shorthair was my joy and I loved them. I admit that I spoil them a lot because they're the only cats that get to leave the cage and taken on a stroll.

Jo Jo has been suffering from renal failure all this while and it was high maintenance keeping him because he only eats the most expensive special diet/prescription food. His approach to show you that he loves you is by nipping you when you least expect it.

He'll let you pet him with your finger through the cage and he purrs and you relax and when you least expect it, he gives you a nip! It's enough to stop you from touching him ever again. But for me, I got used to the nips and he loves me! Whenever I open the cage, he'll come out, and put his paws on my shoulder, he wants me to cuddle him.

Now, he's gone.... Forever. I've been crying non stop because I couldn't be there for him like he did for me. Believe it or not, when I was having problems with my relationship, I used to cuddle him and he never nips me. In fact, he didn't move and let my tears fall unto his fur.

I had this grand plan of adopting him once I get home. I even raised the issue to Dr. Ding before I left and he said to discuss once I get back. I even promised Jojo that he'll be with me once I come back. He was the most well behaved kitty of all time. Unlike Baby with his running wild tendencies!

I hope he's in Kitty Heaven and everything doesn't matter anymore. Nothing is bigger than Jojo. Nothing can hurt me more than Jojo's death. Everything seems so mediocre. I'm just broken. I want to go back to Malaysia but then again, I guess it's too late. I hope he remembers my promise and watch over me. Till then, Jojo, be good, and I miss you and love you so much!

~the saddest girl in the world~
Michelle May
xoox

Sunday, November 21, 2010

The Naked Man

Do you know what the naked man is? A naked man is a last chance attempt at an easy screw based on pity and a joke with the probability of a 2/3 success rate dating maneuver as seen on How I Met Your Mother created by Mitch Something!

During the date, you feel like it’s not going anywhere. Then you do the naked man. How the maneuver is done, is this:
A) Walk your date home.
B) Tell him/her that you need to use the bathroom.
C) Strip down to your birthday suit.
D) Surprise him/her!

When that is done, she’ll be so surprised at your shamelessness and jump right into bed with you.

Been watching a lot of TV here! Penguins of Madagascar, SpongeBob SquarePants, How I Met Your Mother, Two and a Half Man, and my favorite channel of all, Country Music Channel (CMC). I guess I’ve always been a country girl deep down.
I love the tunes and the beats! Here’s my TOP 5 country songs:
1) Cheater Cheater – Joey & Rory
2) Dirt – Lee Kernaghan
3) Rope a Cowgirl – Markus Meier
4) Love Hurts – Lee Kernaghan & Catherine Britt
5) I Told You So – Grand Ole Opry

Been shopping non stop and I genuinely believe that my luggage is overweight by the time I go home. I’ve gotten used to Aussie and I’m dreading the day I have to go home. Aussie is so much fun and so many things to do. I love Wii and I'm such a sports superstar! Even though I know I have to go home cause my baby boy Patrick is sick. He refused to eat and make noise.

I’m a smart girl as well, I’ve wasted 1 year and I don’t think I can waste 5 months here. It doesn’t make sense. I’ve settled my issues and it’s time that I believed in myself and get back on my high horse and prove the world that they were right; I was destined for greatness.

I’ve been reckless and misbehaving here and I need to go back to my responsibilities and the party scene in KL. I love Aussie; I’ve fallen in love with the people, the food, the shopping, the life, the transport, the culture and everything about Aussie. Unlike Malaysia, people here do not discriminate that a Chinese can’t really speak Chinese or act like some uneducated fucktards on the road.

Everything here is so organized, and people here are CIVILIZED unlike back in Malaysia. Besides that, shopping here is my Mecca! Clothes are so freaking cheap, like 5 AUD or 10 AUD . The clothes here are so fashionable because everything matches with everything and no one looks at you like you’re weird. I’ve been wearing maxi dresses, silk handkerchief dresses and dresses with plunging necklines here. People don’t ogle you or whatever. In fact, they don’t even look at you because everyone dresses sexily. This is an example of civilized people.

Unfortunately, shoes here are a little pricey. It’s 50 AUD for a really decent pair. It’s summer here and everything here is floral, light and breezy! Man, I love AUSSIE!

~don’t envy me~
Michelle May
xoox

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

Eat.Pray.Love

Let me begin by saying that Elizabeth Gilbert is my Guru. To me, Guru like a leader and I'm one of her follower. Don't know who is Elizabeth Gilbert? She's the author of Eat.Pray.Love and my savior from depression and self pity.

I was just like her. The only difference was, she chose to give everything up and in my case, everything was taken away from me. I technically screwed up... BIG TIME. I lied and I cheated and I lied a little more, I got lost and went through some fucked up shit.

I went from being an exemplary student, over achieving, filial daughter into a hateful, destructive monster that I don't even recognize. I was never the type that screwed up, after that I've made some bad choices in my life.

I lost everything and by everything, I meant my faith in the opposite sex, my ability to love a man, part of my soul and my parents. Man, they were pretty upset at me for not spending time with them and that I'm always not at home or when I am, we'll be having these big arguments.

In my defense, I was 23 years old and I wanted them out of my life. Then, when things went down south, I quit my job, left everything and everyone that I love back home and came to Sydney with uncertainty. Like what Rascal Flatts sang; "I've love like I should, lived like I shouldn't, I had to lose everything to find out" and that pretty much sums everything up.

I spent so many nights crying, and days are spent thinking about him and when you're far from everyone, you tend to get a little lonely. The distance was a blessing since I wouldn't do anything stupid and lose my dignity but there's no one here I could really talk to or hand out.

Anyways, I brought the novel Eat.Pray.Love and I find it so ______ (insert a word for the opposite of redundant) and I finished it in a day. We go through the same arguments (her with the monkey in the brain and me with my brains fighting with my heart)

Everyone and anyone who has been through a divorce or a break up would know all about the haunting memories, the loss of something familiar, and then it all comes down to 2 options: 1) Cry and beg him/her to take you back and most likely end up as a stalker and a psycho. 2) Let go and move on. I chose 2.

I always tell my friends, Shut the fuck up and move the fuck on. Simple as that. But I found it easier said than done. I spent 2 months mourning the whole break up shit and moving on was impossible. While he, wait for it... is already happily in another relationship!

There was this argument in my head and after reading the book, it helps settle everything.

ARGUMENT: But I really loved him.

- Big deal. Wait till you see how much more deeply you can love than that!

- You have the capacity to someday love the whole world. It’s your destiny.

ARGUMENT: I seriously believed he was my soul mate.

- A soul mate is a mirror, the person who shows you everything that’s holding you back, the person who brings you to your own attention so you can change your life.

- He’s probably the most important person you’ll ever meet, because they tear down your walls and smack you awake.

- They come into your life to reveal another layer of yourself to you and then they leave.

- It’s too painful to live with a soul mate forever.

Find somebody new to love someday. Take the time to heal, but don’t forget to eventually share your heart with someone. Don’t make your life a monument to him.

I've been talking to so many people recently, Chris (ex millionaire with a lot of problems), Leon (Fellow Aussie that has more problems), Anonymous (Who can't seem to let go of the past) and these people are so amazing even though their lives are worst than mine.

Chris used to be a millionaire but he gave it all up for his Japanese wife and daughter. Then, she took his daughter and left to Japan when he's in the ICU for a heart attack. This man, always wanted another child with his current GF but she's cheating on him with another guy and because of that, she had 2 miscarriages because her lover was apparently rough in bed.

Leon, I shall not reveal because he's one of my closest friend that I haven't even met. Met him on facebook and I've never been the type that approves people I don't know but there's something about him that made me do just that. Turns out, he's one of my best supporters and confidante. I always go to him whenever I have a problem. He's patient and wise.

Anonymous is another amazing guy. He's the one that technically yells at me and asks me to move on. He always told me that he's not worth it and there's always something that we can talk about. I adore him in that sense. He's strong and understanding and even though I don't wanna be like him, he's my step-to-step guide to moving on.

These people that I met randomly have so much of problems. I didn't sleep last night and I'm so angry at him. He's such a cheater, liar and an Emmy award winning actor. I've never felt so fucking stupid in my entire life. But then again, I'm better than that. I know karma is a bitch and what he did to me, will definitely go back to him.

I thought I knew him, I thought he was different and when I came to Aussie, I was searching for strength and peace. I found strength but lost peace. Now I just wanna find peace. I'm better than him. I am a good person and because of that, I have good people in my life.

Here's a nice song by the way: Go On Boy

I can't get it back, but
I don't want it back, i
Realized that,
He don't know how to act
Never been a dumb girl
No i'm not dense
I Just had a slight lack
Of common sense
I was the good girl
He was the bad guy
Im thinking one guy
He thinking me, her, Jane and Jenny
Yep he had plenty
But love for me, he didn't have any

I was inviting, him into my heart
But he was out dancing with some other bitch
He was my night time, thought I was his star
Guess I was wrong, but see i'm strong
Wont take me long for me to move on

[Hook:]
Please dont worry bout me im fine
(Please dont worry bout me im fine)
Only gonna play the fool one time
(Only gonna play the fool one time)
Trust me when I say
That i'll be ok
Go on buy
(Go on boy)
Go on boy
(Go on boy)
Go on boy

[V2:]
I cant get it back, but
I dont want it back, i
Realized that,
He dont know how to act
Tried to settle down and look what I get
Thought it was my time, but I guess not yet
Him at the bar buying drinks for many girls
Im in the house, thinking he's with his guyfriends
Trust not knowing, truly not knowing
I look back now like, man, I was open

I was inviting, him into my heart
But he was out dancing with some other bitch
He was my night time, thought I was his star
Guess I was wrong, but see im strong
Wont take me long for me to move on

[Hook:]
Please dont worry bout me im fine
(Please dont worry bout me im fine)
Only gonna play the fool one time
(Only gonna play the fool one time)
Trust me when I say
That i'll be ok
Go on boy
(Go on boy)
Go on boy
(Go on boy)
Go on boy

[Bridge]
The mistake i made is clear
(we never shoulda been together)
Thats the reason youre not here
(I know that I can do much better)
Not a single salty tear
Not a feeling in my chest
Baby im feeling no stress
Im too fly to be depressed

Go on boy
Go on boy
Go on boy
Go on boy

[Hook:]
Please dont worry bout me im fine
(Please dont worry bout me im fine)
Only gonna play the fool one time
(Only gonna play the fool one time)
Trust me when I say
That i'll be ok
Go on boy
(Go on boy)
Go on boy
(Go on boy)
Go on boy

Sorry if this post is a little too long. Once I start writing, I can't stop. But this has been good. I admitted I had a problem and I'm not taking initiative to solve it. Excerpts are from Eat. Pray. Love by Elizabeth Gilbert and remix-ed song is from Ne-Yo's Go On Girl.

P.S: The best way to get over someone is to get under someone else.

~You know you know me~

Michelle May

xoox

Friday, November 12, 2010

The End, New Beginning

Hope you've enjoyed my Sydney Day Series. Madrekins was here so, we went all over the place. There's still so much here left to be discovered. Today, saw them off at the airport. Kinda sad but I know I have to stay for myself. It's pointless to go back, will probably commit suicide or do something very stupid.

On the way back from the airport, I cried and I felt angry. I felt angry because I somehow wanted to blame it all on him. I'm here, miles away from those I love and know and it's all because of him. I adore everyone here. My aunt, Xavier and my uncle but there is no sense of familiarity. It's like starting over.

I sometimes wish that I've never met him. I wished that I've never screwed up. I wish that I didn't have a heart. I wish I was more like Darrell. I missed the times where I had no emotions, no feelings, and the word 'Hurt' didn't exist in my vocabulary.

I've not seen him for a month now. I've stopped praying for him and he's slowly leaving my mind. I still miss him once in a while though... Uncle got me a train pass so I can travel and familiarize myself with the whole place.

Will be going on buses and trains alone next week. Really thankful to have such wonderful people to open up their home to me. I need a breather and away from all the memories. I screwed up big time back home and I'm over it. I know myself and what's good for me.

It's just a matter of time till I go home. I really miss Patrick and Skipper. Now, I wanna export one of these Patricks home. They are just to cutest little things!!! Oh, Patrick refers to Guinea Pigs.

~you know I'm hurting~
Michelle May
xoox

Sydney Day 5

Main shrine of Nan Tian Temple! This place is peaceful. Will be taking refuge in the Triple Gem Ceremony. More info, visit: http://nantien.org.au/en/index.asp







Yup, the sun was blistering hot, so I had to go topless! On top of the rocks and some tourist managed to snap a photo! sheesh!











Today, we left our footprints on Bondi Beach and we traveled to Wollonggong. The beach was really sunny with so many naked people but the water was icy cold!! The whole Bondi Beach area was very Malibu.

Then we went rock climbing! Do you know that it takes a lot of muscle power to reach the top? My muscles was already sore to begin with and with all these strenuous activities, I could barely function at the end of the day!

The view when we reach to the top is just breathtakingly AMAZING!!! You can touch the sky, smell the ocean breeze and see the red earth and cliffs and it's just wonderful!

Then, we had another picnic by Wollonggong beach. It's not an ordinary picnic, it's a KFC picnic! I love the Devil's Wings and it's so different compared to the KFC back home.

For dinner, we went to Iron Chef for some decadently delicious food! Then, had to go home and pack. I hate packing. Packing sucks!

~you know you miss me~
Michelle May
xoox

Wednesday, November 10, 2010

Sydney Day 4

I don't know what they are but the look like llamas/Alpacas, I don't know... I think they could be mountain goats too.

I love this Kambing! I must've been a Kambing Whisperer coz the minute he saw me, he jumped over the fence and let me cuddle him!

These sheep were too busy eating, they just ate and ate and ate and they didn't bother about me or anyone petting them!

I love these Patricks!!!! These Patricks were HUGE!!! I hope Patrick will grow to be as big as them!

We were having fun petting the blue tongue skink! This poor fellow was attacked by a dog but he made it... It's a lovely little fellow!

This seal was so friggin smart! I'm so impressed and I really enjoyed the seal show.



Me and a whole bunch of Penguins of Madagascar! Oh, and also the penguin from Surf's Up! I absolutely love penguins!!!

I love the whole concept of the zoo where you can just walk and experience the wildlife! You could be walking the same path as a kangaroo! But I stumbled across these Mandarin Ducks.

Just posing with all the deco on the garden all over Taronga Zoo.

I enjoyed the ferry ride to the zoo.. Unfortunately, I wore the wrong attire! The wind was so strong, it kept blowing my dress up. I had to sit the entire time!

Today, we went to Taronga Zoo! The whole trip cost around 50AUD which includes the entrance fee and Sky Train. The ferry leaves Circular Quay at Wharf 2 or you can also inquire with Captain Cook Cruises. It's almost the same price.

I really enjoyed the zoo because it's humongous! Unlike our pathetic zoo where the animals are dying or half dead! The zoo here is so well kept and big and clean and the animals are in healthy condition!

The people at the zoo are very friendly and they have so many different types of animals! I'm extremely impressed! Makes our zoo back home puny! I'm beginning to like it here... I might just love it here.... in time!

~you know you love me~
Michelle May
xoox